| i can't believe it's already christmas. can you believe it???
Christmas 2007. It is literally 4 days away!!! *sigh*
Merry Christmas everyone  |
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| beautifully written
perfectly casted
amazing story...
go watch lars and the real girl. just do it. |
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| a boy sang to me last night. i am in love... jason wade... please love me back. ...  |
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| i don't know if any of you still read my xanga, yet alone use xanga because facebook is officially taking over the world... but i thought i'd give it a try.
what should i write about... ahhh yes... quarter life crisis.
"Quarter life crisis??? does such a thing exist???" you ask? yes. quarter life crisis. a point in your life when you are hypothetically one quarter done with living on earth and well on your way to the "death bed." haha i don't want to be completely dramatic but it's relieving some stress of mine 
so what is this quarter life crisis? have you been through it? will you go through it? are you in it as of this moment, right now?
needless to say... assuming that you figured out why i'm even writing about this topic... i am currently in a quarter life crisis... and it's freaking me out.
i don't know how it is with boys but me being a girl i will write about my perspective and hopefully other girls will be able to relate, take a deep sigh, and take comfort in knowing that there is at least one girl in this world that is feeling the same way that you do. 
OH MY FREAKING GOSH. WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON. WHAT AM I THINKING? WHAT SHOULD I DO? WHERE AM I GOING? IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING TO ME? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? ARE YOU BEING FREAKING SERIOUS? I DID NOT KNOW THAT! .
yes. i believe those entire 9 sentences summerize a quarter life crisis, at least in my eyes and i'd like to explain where each one comes from.
OH MY FREAKING GOSH: comes from realizing that you are no longer in college and have miraculously become a REAL adult without anything to do but a simple thing called... work. you realize that you will no longer be enlightened in school (unless attending grad school and for those of you who are... hats off to you and a curtsy ), and from now on... you must have courage to be on your own... for the rest of your life. oh my freaking gosh.
WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON: comes from finding out that even though you have a bachelor's degree in who knows what... it is worth absolutely nothing. ok maybe not absolutely nothing but an undergraduate degree isn't something that jobs really care about nor really benefit you. you come to realize that jobs don't ever call you back. jobs don't care. jobs don't want you. you have gone from "congratulations college graduate!!! you did great at one of the best universities!!!" to "who are you and what do you have to offer me?" what the heck is going on.
WHAT AM I THINKING: comes from the thoughts of everything and anything that pop in your head that you have never questioned before. questions about life, love, God, people, friends... it's incredible how much things change during this crisis. inexplicable which often causes me to ponder... what am i really thinking and where are these thoughts coming from?!
WHAT SHOULD I DO: comes from the thoughts that many people in this world, even those into their late 40's ask themselves. what should i do? what direction should i go into? is this REALLY what God wants me to do? how do i know this is what i should be doing? it is a question that cannot be dealt with overnight but requires a lot of thought, prayer, guidance, and plain ol' experimentation. but really what should i do... :/
i decided to stop after this because i just realized that it would get ridiculously redundant and overly analytical which many of you will barf upon BUT i must say that it is hard yet gorgeously beautiful at the same time. i think this time is when God really "takes off His earings and heels" and says "bring it on satan... you ain't messin with my girl this time" and it's quite thrilling and nurturing to see~ ... that is if i do my part as well and obey Him in all aspects of my life. (for those of you who are offended that i made God's phrases womanly... ummm... oh well. hahaha jk i apologize)
it's like a butterfly merging from it's cacoon, like a baby chick hatching from it's egg, like a ... ok i'll stop cuz you're gagging up your phlem as we speak but honestly... even though it is painful and heart wrenching... it is an inspiring process and i wouldn't trade it for anything else in the world (except to be in heaven marveling upon the glorious one without a care in sight but who wouldn't want that )
ciao people. screw facebook. xanga is back. 
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